...and struggling still

Hi Peeps.

This week has been going well overall. Actually, I was early to all of my school and work related appointments until class this morning, which completely bummed me out  since I was really shooting for a perfect week :( I'll take the progress either way of course. I'll keep trying to focus on the successes rather than the failures and keeping the negative self-talk under control. But ,as long as I arrive on time tomorrow morning, I will be seeing my movie this weekend. So Excited!

I am definitely motivated for change and making a conscious effort to get this monkey off my back, but it's still hard. Actually it's frustrating, because the only one I can blame when I'm late is myself lol. No scapegoats are available for this one :(

As I'm making these efforts, I've started to realize that being on-time is a symptom and not the actual problem. One of the things that impact my tendency to procrastinate overall is off course avoidance (like we discussed in class); but also feeling exhausted. I'm pretty much always pressing the "snooze" button before a task. So, on top of continuing my current efforts to be on time, I will also go to bed at a regular time. I'm thinking that if I don't feel so drained, then I'll be able to get up more easily, and I'll be on time more. Sounds like a good idea to me. So I'll start to monitor that as well to see if it makes a difference.

I still think I'm lacking structure and definition for these behaviors so I'm listing my goals below so it can be in black & white and I can really see if/where the changes are happening.

Here is what I would like to accomplish to finish out my week:

Friday (9/21)
Arrive at Dawson by 7:30
Arrive at appointment by 11:30

Not too bad right? Please keep sharing your thoughts and ideas. They really do make a difference. Thanks for the support ya'll.